Yep, I'm PREGNANT~
20 weeks, It's a BOY.
20 weeks, It's a BOY.
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Some more thoughts: We found out on Friday, Sept 6 but I wasn't able to see the nurse practitioner until Sept 17th. Yes, this past week and a half has been unbearable emotionally. I've thought all of the horrifying thoughts*, googled all of the bad things, and have generally been freaking out. It's been especially hard because we wanted to share the news with family first, so keeping it hush-hush has been difficult. I normally turn to my Twitter and in-game friends for advice and a shoulder to lean on, but I haven't been able to do that this time. So I've had to shoulder this burden all alone (or so it's felt).
Last July, I went for my yearly "well woman checkup" at my gyno and she diagnosed PCOS. Now, the important thing to realize about PCOS is the S part -- it's a syndrome, not a disease. That means that there is no cause to pinpoint, no "thing" to say "this is what happened to make you this way." PCOS is diagnosed when several symptoms are present. I have quite a few of those symptoms, the main one being irregular periods. If you remember back in your Sex Ed class in school, a girl/woman has her period only after she has ovulated (the preemptive uterine lining is shed after the egg has not been fertilized). If a woman has irregular periods, it's likely that she doesn't ovulate. All of this is to say that my doctor told me that while she thought it wouldn't be as difficult for some women, I would still need assistance in getting pregnant. Yet almost a year later, two positive pregnancy tests without "trying." And now you know why these past couple of weeks have been really hard.
Now that the pregnancy has been confirmed to be an actual pregnancy, I'll be feeling a lot better, mentally. Things will be much better from the "omg it's really real forreal now" standpoint. And now the fun begins! The planning and prepping and buying fun baby things! :)
*The scariest thing I ended up googling was "ovarian cyst mimic pregnancy" because I was really afraid that I was not actually pregnant, but all of the symptoms I'm presenting are related to an ovarian cyst about to rupture. I consoled myself with the fact that pretty much all of the symptoms of a ruptured or soon-to-rupture ovarian cyst are nonexistent (no pain whatsoever, no bleeding, etc).
I also stupidly googled "pregnant with PCOS" and saw that women with PCOS have a 40% chance of miscarriage within the first trimester. This one really freaked me out, especially when I felt "pregnancy symptom-free" for a couple days last week. Everything I've researched about pregnancy symptoms (ha, there I go again!) suggested that all of the aches, cramps, fatigue, nausea were caused by high levels of hormones indicating my body making damn sure the pregnancy is viable. So I was assuring myself that as long as I felt the cramps and sick to my stomach then I really was pregnant. It reassured me, in a weird way.